This week I read in an article that more than ever we can create heaven or hell for our selves.
In this now ‘I’ am going through a dark night of the soul. The hell my un-awakened personality used to create for itself in the old days is nothing compared to this. For now I know I am the creator of my own reality. There is nothing to blame besides me: knowing that I am responsible.
So my mind discovered a new favourite program: beating itself up.
The awareness knows it is simply a choice between drama or bliss and that one can re-program the mind, but the programs keep running.
Looking at the ages old trauma’s that are more than ever ready to come to the light, I wonder why these programmes still feel so safe, but are so horrible at the same time.
‘I’ want to run away but then I realise I can never run away from this as it will haunt me and it will show up in newer outfits, dressed in the latest fashion.
There is a new vulnerability waiting to emerge from the mud in the bottom of the lake, ready to go beyond the light. It is protecting itself with these repetitive programs.
The personality feels cornered, there is no escape possible. These ancient programs need to be deleted. I feel true freedom is waiting around this corner…..
So why this fear? I know it should be safe now to come out. The fear is not real, I tell myself.
TO BE CONTINUED
